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  • The Emotional Weight of the Holidays: When Joy and Grief Coexist

    The holidays are often described as the happiest time of the year—but for many, they are emotionally complex, heavy, and even painful. While the world emphasizes celebration, togetherness, and cheer, countless people quietly navigate grief, loneliness, anxiety, exhaustion, or unresolved trauma during this season.

    If your emotions feel heightened or conflicting during the holidays, there is nothing wrong with you. The holidays have a way of touching every tender place in the heart.

    Why Emotions Intensify During the Holidays

    Holidays disrupt routines and stir memories. They bring people together who may not feel safe in the same space. They highlight what has been lost, what never was, and what we wish could be different.

    For some, the holidays magnify:

    • Grief for loved ones who are no longer here
    • Longing for relationships that ended or never existed
    • Tension within families
    • Financial stress and unmet expectations
    • Trauma connected to past holidays
    • Loneliness in the midst of crowds

    The nervous system doesn’t understand calendars or traditions—it responds to memories, patterns, and perceived threats. If past holidays were marked by loss, conflict, or harm, the body remembers, even when the mind wants to “just enjoy the season.”

    When Joy Feels Forced

    Many people feel pressure to perform happiness during the holidays. Smiles are expected. Gratitude is demanded. Discomfort is minimized with phrases like “at least…” or “you should be thankful.”

    But emotional honesty matters.

    Joy cannot be forced, and pretending often creates more exhaustion than relief. It is possible to love parts of the season and still struggle with it. It is possible to feel grateful and broken at the same time. Holding mixed emotions does not mean you are unfaithful, ungrateful, or failing—it means you are human.

    The Impact of Trauma on Holiday Emotions

    For those who have experienced trauma—primarily relational or domestic trauma—the holidays can feel particularly overwhelming. Increased social obligations, sensory overload, disrupted schedules, and family dynamics can activate old survival responses.

    You may notice:

    • Irritability or emotional numbness
    • Heightened anxiety or hypervigilance
    • Fatigue that feels deeper than usual
    • Guilt for not feeling joyful
    • A desire to withdraw or isolate

    These responses are not weaknesses. They are signals from a nervous system that once had to protect you.

    Grief That Has No Timeline

    Grief doesn’t respect seasons or schedules. It doesn’t fade because lights are hung or music plays. The holidays often sharpen grief because they remind us of who is missing, what has changed, and what will never be the same.

    Whether you are grieving a loved one, a relationship, your health, your safety, or a version of life you hoped for—your grief is valid. You are allowed to feel it without rushing yourself toward healing or closure.

    Making Space for What You Feel

    The goal during the holidays does not have to be happiness. Sometimes the goal is gentleness.

    It may look like:

    • Setting boundaries around gatherings
    • Choosing rest over obligation
    • Creating new traditions or letting old ones go
    • Spending time in nature or quiet reflection
    • Permitting yourself to feel without fixing

    There is no right way to do the holidays—only the way that protects your well-being.

    Faith, Emotions, and Permission to Be Honest

    Faith does not require emotional denial. Scripture is filled with lament, grief, questions, and heartfelt cries. God is not offended by our sadness or confusion. He meets us in it.

    Peace does not always mean feeling calm—it often means feeling safe enough to be real.

    If the Holidays Are Hard This Year

    If you’re struggling, you are not alone—and you are not broken. This season can be heavy, especially for those who carry invisible wounds.

    You don’t have to force joy. You don’t have to explain your feelings. You don’t have to meet anyone else’s expectations.

    Sometimes, the bravest thing you can do during the holidays is to honour what you feel and take care of yourself with compassion.

    Healing is not measured by how cheerful you appear—but by how gently you treat yourself when things feel hard.

  • When Survival Has Left You Exhausted: Rest for the Weary Soul

    You are not lazy, stuck, or unmotivated. You are exhausted. There is a difference. After years of living in survival mode, your body and mind are simply tired. You’ve been running on adrenaline, holding yourself together through crisis after crisis, managing emotions that were never yours to carry, and trying to protect yourself and those you love. That kind of living takes everything out of you. It’s not that you lack drive or purpose—you’ve been in fight-or-flight for so long that your body has forgotten what peace feels like.

    The Bible says, “Come to Me, all you who are weary and heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28) Those words aren’t just an invitation—they are a promise. God knows the toll that trauma takes. He sees the nights you lie awake replaying memories you wish you could forget. He knows the weight you’ve been carrying—the anxiety, fear, grief—and He’s not asking you to push harder. He’s asking you to rest. Not the kind of rest that comes from a nap or a weekend off, but the soul-deep rest that only He can give.

    When you’ve spent years surviving, slowing down feels wrong. Stillness can feel unsafe, even foreign. You’ve trained your body to stay alert, read every tone, and anticipate danger before it comes. Then, when the chaos finally ends, your system doesn’t automatically know you’re safe. It keeps scanning for threats, and you wonder why you can’t seem to focus, feel unmotivated, or cry for no reason. This isn’t weakness—it’s your nervous system recalibrating after years of living on edge.

    The world glorifies productivity. It tells you that your worth is measured by how much you do, how much you give, and how much you accomplish. But God measures differently. He’s not asking you to perform—He’s asking you to come. To lay it all down. To stop striving for just a moment and let Him carry the weight you were never meant to bear alone.

    This exhaustion you feel isn’t proof that you’re failing. It’s proof that you’ve been strong for too long. You survived what others may never understand. You kept going when it would have been easier to give up. And now, your body and soul ask for what they’ve been deprived of—gentleness, healing, and rest. It’s not that you don’t care anymore; it’s that you’ve finally reached the place where you can begin to breathe again.

    You don’t have to earn the right to rest. You don’t have to justify slowing down. Jesus permitted you when He said, “Come to Me.” His rest is restorative—it doesn’t just refresh the body; it heals the soul. It reminds you that you are safe now, loved, and don’t have to keep proving your worth through effort.

    So, if you feel unmotivated or “stuck,” don’t be hard on yourself. You are not lazy. You are recovering. You are healing from years of exhaustion, and your body has finally stopped masking. Give yourself the grace to slow down, to feel, to rest. Allow yourself to be renewed by the One who restores all things.

    Because healing doesn’t come from pushing through—it comes from surrender. And in that surrender, you’ll find the peace you’ve longed for. You are not broken; You are tired. And that’s precisely who Jesus invites to come to Him—the weary, the burdened, the ones who’ve been fighting for far too long.

    Let Him give you rest. The kind that quiets your soul, steadies your heart, and reminds you that you were never meant to do this alone.